things
- I take back everything I said, because by being lost and being pushed into a situation I didn't plan to put myself in, I found something that I love. English has heart and science has truth and that's all I want out of my life. I want to find a truth, because that seems to be the one crucial thing that this country is severely lacking in. A truth for me, this country, and this world. Not just a personal truth, but also a universal truth. The answers are out there. I want to find it.
- As much as I am comforted by this realization, there are still things that hurt. For such a rational being, humans are so completely weighed down by emotions. I really do think that if I could control my feelings, I would be a much better person.
- As much as I want to find a truth, I understand that there is a downfall to knowing the truth, and I recognize that there is more to this world than the laws of science that govern it. That's why I want to be happy and I want to be happy in meaningful ways and I want to be happy in meaningful ways with you but I'm difficult and you make things hard and nothing is going the way I want it to.
- I need to remember that coffee is not an antidepressant.
- Live this day just once.