I like being alone. I like silence. I like spending my Sunday afternoons peacefully. I like waking up to cloudy gray skies and listening to the pitter-patter of raindrops on my window from the comfort of my bed. I like lying down in the dark with nothing but the quiet to accompany me. I like being isolated in small spaces. I like sitting in wide open spaces emptied of all life. I like being one. Just one. And while I might be energetic and comical in the times that I'm with my friends, I can't do it all the time. I can't always be that person because honestly, it's not in my nature. It's not a ruse that I invented, either, but my quiet side certainly overpowers the more childish side of me.
On some days, I feel so obligated to act like the excitable little kid that most people know and see. It becomes a chore. I wish I could just be the quiet contemplative person that I normally am without coming across as moody.