I hate being sick. I HATE it. It's amazing how fast my self esteem goes down when I am.

I don't want anyone to see as less than I normally am. Because even the thought of that hurts. It sucks extra balls because I know I can do better. It's hard...so fucking hard to be around people when I'm like this. So fucking hard to even try to like myself when I'm like this.

Oh wow I think I just understood something about someone.
And I also just made the realization that I am ACTUALLY Asuka holy fuck

UGH BUT MY POINT IS
I HATE BEING SICK
I DON'T WANT PEOPLE LOOKING DOWN ON ME WHEN I'M SICK
I HAVE SELF ESTEEM ISSUES (more than usual) WHEN I AM SICK
EVERYTHING ABOUT BEING SICK IS FUCKING TERRIBLE

FUCK.