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mm. it's time for me to work harder at what I do. I can't keep doing things half-heartedly. I want to be proud of the work that I do, because I know how shitty it feels when I know I could have done better but didn't. That's what I'm feeling right now, and I don't want to feel it ever again.

I might be a perfectionist, but I'm also impossibly lazy. If you mix the two, the inevitable product is a lot of regret. I don't want to keep wondering what could have been if I had just put in a little bit more effort.