(take out the context of the panel and hello, this is my summer)
I am finding the joys of being alone all over again, for better or worse. I am becoming increasingly frustrated with the words that I choose in order to convey an emotion that I cannot express. I am feeling overworked and unfulfilled, but I can't stop myself from walking forward because I chose to chase t(his) light. I feel closer to the people that I love, moreso than ever before, but I also feel worlds away from the one that I want to love me. My dreams are the only place that I see you, and I have been dreaming more often than ever before, thank goodness. But dreams are also where I am haunted by people that I don't want to see and a past that I don't want to remember, and it's causing me to play avoidance more than ever before. Past, present, and future keep crashing into each other in my thoughts and in my sleep and in my day-to-day reality it makes me feel like a mess. But, I am also happy that I am able to feel, unlike the me from a year ago.
(summer is bittersweet)